one word to sum it up-dying. There's just tremendous amount of pent up frustration, anger and confusion. I'm like seriously questioning myself, asking myself if smu is the right university for me. I just don't seem suited to the working style of smu. Everything just feels so different and foreign as compared to jc. The assignments don't even seem like tutorials to me. Presentations and i seem terrible. 1st presentation-LTB. i told myself that i'll work harder to remember my script. 2nd presentation today-biz law. I practiced like mad for my script and i was pretty sure that i could remember he major part of the content. However, q&a just slaughtered me totally. i hate how my brain just blanks out when the prof asks a question and how i cant seem to think properly.

biz law presentation today just shattered every ounce of confidence that i have. The prof asked the qns and i took quite some time to actually be able to answer her. However, my answer was seriously still terrible. Not up to standard.

i thought that i knew the content of the presentation pretty well already. Yet, i still couldnt really answer her qns. Worst of all, having such horrible grp members ain't makes everything even more terrible. Our presentation today just seemed totally messy and disorganised.

academic writing ain't treating me that well either. everything just feels so bizzare and wierd here. to make matters worst, assignment 2a draft is due tmr and i've barely started.

Am feeling really stressed out for mid terms. i need to score desperately.

Feeling terribly physically and mentally drained.

The amount of effort i put in each time just don't seem to measure up to the results.

i need to maintain a gpa of 3.4.

suddenly this seems so far away. it feels so difficult to even get at least an A- for each module.

i need to keep this scholarship super badly. thats lk probably the only reason why i will even chose smu.

the need for emotional support. i feel as though i'm going to have an emotional breakdown anytime soon.