(Saturday, June 18, 2011 / 10:37 PM)
and i wonder whats the point.
cant understand whats wrong with everything. why bother.
sometimes, i really think that i'd end up being the career minded yet sadly single sort of woman. maybe its because of my high expectations. whats the point of marrying down. isn't life about becoming better?
or maybe i cant seem to find any benefits of marriage other than the shared expenses & being less lonely cause there's someone with you all your life. that said its only of both parties can survive being with each other their whole life. whats the odds this day. marriage scares me. oh whatever, i shldn't even be thinking about such stuffs. theres more to life currently than marriage.
hate having to be the one having to go through all the shitty stuffs at home. what an eff up family. everyone's so screwed up.i shld have just bloody accept nus offer, stay in the hostel for the next 5 yrs. at least i can just pretend that everythings all right. i dont have to worry about all these things.
i'm so tired of being the sensible one in the family.
i hate being the one worrying all my life for my family.
all i want is to have a happy family.
is it that hard just to want one?
i feel so drained emotionally.....
