(Sunday, May 22, 2011 / 10:55 PM)
please get better throat.
please stop coughing. :(
phelgm go away!
i hate soundly like a tranny.
i hate coughing non-stop. the feeling is absolutely horrible.
its so hard to teach in this state that i'm in.
Beware: random ramblings
This weekend has been anything but good.
i've no idea why but the feeling of depression is bad. screw it!
haven't been feeling like this for a long long time. i thought i'd only feel unexplainable depressed during exam periods but like i'm leading a stress-less life. so what explains it. meow.
life has been pretty aimless and goaless. I realised that i did not bother setting any goals for 2011.
i've currently no real goal in life.
In january and febuary all i wish was that A level results will be out.
In march, i wished that posting results will be out quickly.
In april and may, i wished that scholarship results will be out quickly.
As may is coming to an end and june is approaching, all i want id for school to start quickly.
I'm sick of life like this. I'm sick of leading such aimless life.
I need a social life. gawddd. everyday its so boring.
All i look forward to in life these days are days to meet my girls.
& now i feel as though i'm experiencing an identity crisis.
Sometimes, i've wierd thoughts in my head. I'm not even sure if i know who i am anymore.
At times, thoughts like this makes me scared of myself.
i miss clubbing. :(
i want to club so badly.
i wish i'll dare to stand up against you people but i guess i'm just like how you all see me.
i'll be the kind of daughter you all see me as. the type of daughter you all expect. the one that listens to whatever you all say.
the one who will never dare to rebel or go against you all like my sister.
i wish i've the guts like my sister. but then again i'm always so fearful. i always seem to be hiding behind the shadow of someone.
well, if only you people knew what i did in school back in secondary school days.
if only you all know what i'm thinking right now.
i bet you will be scared senseless.
i'm shocked that i even have such thoughts.
whatever....
i think going back to school will then make me sane once again.
screw life.
i thought going ___ will make me a better person
some days it works but i guess its days like this that i ....
I want to shop soon! i need new clothes. new dress.
new wardrobe.
