talkin bout how mad i was.. top secret discovered.. tt my two top most ear holes r infected by some earrings i cun b bothered to take out despite feelin e pain... my right 3rd ear hole was so badly infected.. n i was so afraid tt it would close tt i juz use a random earing to poke thru it.. bear e pain 4 e sake of vainity.. n my ear is throbbin wid pain now.. i think tt i'm mad.. der! its onli a ear hole but i'm juz so scared tt it would suddenly close.. hahas.. i think tt i'm not talkin sense.. n i'm on line for 4 hours.. talkin bout bored.. n i juz realised tt i haven start any sec 3 revision thus i muz chiong tis two weeks.. yay!!! i'm lookin forward to 203'06 class bbq on 19.. yay!!! i'm gonna gouge n play to my hearts content.. i'm gonna blade.. n oh ya 6e oso havin chalet fr 19 to 21..i'm still contemplatin as to wherether i should go not.. lolx!!!
n oh ya e wierd thing is tt its a sat nite todae n practically no one is on line.. lolx!! i'm bored.. n my knees r hurtin so dam badly.. is lk last few days when there was dance it didnt hurt so badly.. n todae juz stonin at home i can feel e pain even when i walk.. n when lk yeast i can still play bbal... i'm afraid.. i dunno but lk i juz cant get over some things tt happened to me b4 sch close.. its still hauntin me..
n yest vera saked me y i lk green tea so much..its lk 9 months already.. yet i still cant let it go.. n she asked me to list 10 reasons y i lk him.. i juz cun give any real reasons.. its juz lk wad they say tt love is blind..
y ppl dun dare to confess cauz they treasure tt little friendship tt they hv n they do not wish to destroy it.. n oso rejection..
many a times i really wanted to let go but i juz cant.. i juz cant make myself forget him..
n i realised tt i'm gettin so emo nowadays.. i cry real easily for no particular reason.. i get afraid easily etc.. n lk now i juz feel lk cryin.. for no reason..
b lks me thou i dont.. he oso dosent noe tt i lk c.. well c oso dosent noe.. i fell really bad 'usin' b cauz i really dun lk him at all.. i juz 'use' him as someone to talk to n entertain me when i'm bored..
life... i thought tt i could use e hols to forget bout u but when i saw u again him again i realised tt i cun...
i hate it when ppl try to run my life n try to make me do things against my will..
