i finally noe n realised wad i hv been fearin so much thus causin all my depressions n mood swings.. i'm really afraid to lose wad i hv which i treaure v much b it frenz etc..
i realised e reason y i'm so afraid to stead already.. i'm afraid to lose e person.. i 'm afraid tt juz when i really lk tt person he will reject me n break my herat.. i dun dare to break e person heart for FEAR again.. y do i alwax take e first step to break cauz i dun wanna get really into e relationship n get all heartbroken.. i'm afraid of rejection .. mayb wad e prophesy really means gt to do wid tis..
mayb i'm juz really too young to get into all these relationships.. mayb i will juz wait upon e Lord for his best timin n juz b frenz wid all.. i noe tt God has everything planned out 4 me already..
i'll b goin to cut my hair wid vera n do my xmas shoppin wid vera in e aft b4 goin shoppin wid my mum!! i love shoppin hahas. i've gotta do all my shoppin by tis week.. cauz 19 gt class bbq.. n 20 n 21 gt 6e chalet.. 22 dad will b finally comin back.. yay!!!
i'm so lookin forward to xmas.. :]
mayb all i can do is juz watch u fr afar n wish u e best.. thou i really love u there's really nothin i can do..
service was fabulous.. i juz love pastor kong's preachin.. its meaningful n really down to earth..
