the ice is my stage

2011-09-28T18:55:00.000+08:00

i've shifted to www.simplicitycolour.wordpress.com =)

Mid terms really sucks!

2011-09-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

I've been blogging really often these days. I guess its a channel for me to rant as much as i want to without the fear of sounding too whinny or grumpy or what-so-ever. So, as of today, i'm done with 3/4 papers with the last one this saturday. Well to sum it up, it wasn't good at all. Clinically depressed as of now. Other than Ltb mid terms, aw and stats were sort of horrible. To think i had such high hopes of getting A+ for stats. All the practice for nothing. Seriously. Doing over 300qns in the past 6 weeks didn't seem much of a help. :(

Now, all i'm hoping is an A- for this mid sem. I'm not even sure if i can get it and this feeling sucks. Math used to be my forte and i've always been super confident in getting an A since secondary school. So why is all of this changing now that i'm in university. I feel as though my brain juice is leaking away. Brain juice, i need you really badly for this 4 years in SMU!

& of today till friday evening, i shall mug my ass off for biz law and hopefully i can at least an A- for my mid terms. God please help me. Really.

Recess week in about 3days. I can't wait for recess week!

Time to catch up on my school work, party hard and meet all my besties. Miss them truck loads. <3

& i never thought that i'll feel this way about you.

mid-term blues

2011-09-25T21:35:00.003+08:00

End of week 6.

Mid-terms are starting tomorrow and i'm feeling extremely ill at ease. :(

its been an extremely long time since i felt so ill-prepared.

No matter how small the tests/exams may be, i used to make sure that i'm as prepared as i can be. now, oh well....

& now, i know that all i can do is to trust God and commit all my papers into his hands.

Life's complicated

2011-09-21T20:37:00.002+08:00

week 6 in SMU.

one word to sum it up-dying. There's just tremendous amount of pent up frustration, anger and confusion. I'm like seriously questioning myself, asking myself if smu is the right university for me. I just don't seem suited to the working style of smu. Everything just feels so different and foreign as compared to jc. The assignments don't even seem like tutorials to me. Presentations and i seem terrible. 1st presentation-LTB. i told myself that i'll work harder to remember my script. 2nd presentation today-biz law. I practiced like mad for my script and i was pretty sure that i could remember he major part of the content. However, q&a just slaughtered me totally. i hate how my brain just blanks out when the prof asks a question and how i cant seem to think properly.

biz law presentation today just shattered every ounce of confidence that i have. The prof asked the qns and i took quite some time to actually be able to answer her. However, my answer was seriously still terrible. Not up to standard.

i thought that i knew the content of the presentation pretty well already. Yet, i still couldnt really answer her qns. Worst of all, having such horrible grp members ain't makes everything even more terrible. Our presentation today just seemed totally messy and disorganised.

academic writing ain't treating me that well either. everything just feels so bizzare and wierd here. to make matters worst, assignment 2a draft is due tmr and i've barely started.

Am feeling really stressed out for mid terms. i need to score desperately.

Feeling terribly physically and mentally drained.

The amount of effort i put in each time just don't seem to measure up to the results.

i need to maintain a gpa of 3.4.

suddenly this seems so far away. it feels so difficult to even get at least an A- for each module.

i need to keep this scholarship super badly. thats lk probably the only reason why i will even chose smu.

the need for emotional support. i feel as though i'm going to have an emotional breakdown anytime soon.

Officially hating beer

2011-09-10T01:06:00.003+08:00

So, today marks the end of my 4th week in SMU. I seriously can't believe that i actually survived through 1 entire month of school. Mid-terms are coming in just 2 plus weeks. I feel so unprepared and still in a holiday week and this totally scares me. & today marks the end of party time in Smu till at least the recess week which comes in 4 weeks time. =D

Serious mugging is absolutely required. No more slacking! No more partying.

Sports fiesta( did nth but just cheer and acted as goalie for captain ball for 5mins in my rocker outfit. LOL. ), AS class which never fails to make me feel dumb due to the people around me, CSD event followed by ASOC day. The music was good and the food was really awesome! Took my first round of food. Wiped it clean. Feeling greedy as usual, i decided to take a 2nd helping only to realise that i was far too full to swallow any food down. =/

Feeling quite down at the moment. :(

Was on the train when i realised that i got rejected by the ocsp to vietnam. Well, still thought that i was able to get in as i felt that the interview went pretty well. Sigh guess my well wasnt good enough. The dissapointment i received on the train felt just like how i felt when i read the email only to know that i got rejected by ntu nanyang scholarship. The sense of failure. The sense of feeling really upset. This sucks. Oh well, no choice. If there's no other ocsp to go this december, guess i'll only go during the summer next year. No choice.:(

On a positive note, this will enable me to concentrate on ivp next january.

emo ttm right now. I need to let it go.

nth is ever gg to come out of it.

i shld have expected it. fml

will i ever find that one day though..

2011-09-06T00:02:00.001+08:00

Worst biz law group mates. Seriously, can just suck thumb man.

Thank God its Sunday

2011-09-04T13:16:00.003+08:00

Weekends are my favourite time of the week. Time for me to enjoy life, meet up with my old friends,spend time with daddy&mummy & stay home to mug. =)

life's awesome just like that. Its great being able to meet with jc clique fortnightly, whats-apping them all daily. Well, cant wait for our next date! Dinner at timbre with the BEST wings and pizza and htht!

Sigh, really miss x.phiscovia girls. Its been such a long time since we all last met. I think our last date was in June which was like what, 3 mths ago? Lol. & ty has officially mia-ed for the last 3 weeks or so and i've no idea where she is. :( Why are you girls all so busy. Sobs.

Recap for the past week.

it was just basically school, caderas concert@zirca, econs bash@ butter which was horribly boring and had us eating macs at 2plus cause the crowd just dispersed and left at around 2am, training with the run team( finally found a pretty nice route to run!=) ), school on a saurday morning and Slightly scarlet fashion show followed by after party @ tab( the only thing that made me decide to go were the free drinks. Lol.) Guess i should have just gone to soul to find the other girls.

Alrighty, no more clubbing till maybe ladies night during recess week.

Tine to start being a total mugger. YAY! =D

off to do my stats!

random talks

2011-08-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

5 UNHAPPY THOUGHTS

1. i can't seem to make myself study the whole of today evening till now

2. i'm kind of dreading ltb presentation tomorrow( no idea why either. :( )

3. Weekends seem to pass so quickly

4. Everyone seems super busy. too busy to even bother about their phones. except me. LOL.

5. Life's far too boring and i'm gaining weight. wts. :(

5 HAPPY THOUGHTS TO ENCOURAGE MYSELF

1. i met up with my favourite girls yesterday. Had an absolute blast of a time photo-boothing with them.

2. sc7 outing yesterday was pretty enjoyable. =)

I think its by far the most successful one that we had. The highest ever attendance.

3. I got into caderas. yay!

4. Its a public holiday on tuesday. Time to buck up on my studies and enjoy staying at home. =)

5. my pay just came in today! less broke. finally!

came across this: all my life i've been good & now i'm like wth? I need to start having fun.

How apt. I think i've changed quite a fair bit every since jc life ended. I really do need to have more fun. I've been living far too much for others and my studies. Life revolves around more than just that. i guess?

i'm not sure if this change is good or bad.

but for now, let me just enjoy myself first.

2011-08-25T18:08:00.002+08:00

So, cheer leading or salsa. I've always thought that i'll join cheerleading and track when i enter smu. I never thought that i'll muster the courage to join dance again. However, seeing the dancers dance during vivace, it makes me miss the feeling of dancing. Hence, i decided to muster the courage to sign up for salsa. This has been a dance i've always wanted to learn since A levels ended but i lack the courage to do so. Now, the opportunity is so close. Well, provided that i get through the interviews though. Sigh, why must cheer and salsa have the exact same day and time of training. :(

ok, shall probably think about it again if i really do get into caderas.

i think my mens is coming. Have been feeling really angsty and annoyed whole of today. I have always like the idea of mugging alone at home as it enables me to concentrate fully. Yet, i felt totally bored and jittery and what so ever doing so today. My room feels far too silent for a prolonged period of time. Feeling like a total emotional wreckage. I hope that his is purely pms.

Freshman bash today and i'm absolutely NOT looking forward to it. I've always love clubbing. A long time since i detest the ide of clubbing. Oh well, maybe the music will change my mood tonight.

Control tonight! Dont let my emotions get into the way. Can't afford to die today.

stats boredom!

2011-08-24T09:23:00.003+08:00

hihi, so now i'm at my stats class, absolutely bored to the max. Can't wait for the day's lesson to end. :( Feeing extremely exhausted. Suffering from a total lack of sleep since school started. Its an absolute lie when they say that jc is the toughest time of my life when schooling. Just when i thought i could enjoy life a little more in university.

So, i'm kind of happy that i got through caderas audition.=)

hopefully, i'll get through the interview too!!!

hihihistat101 ftw

this is done by amanda lau!

WEEK 1, DAY 2

2011-08-16T16:08:00.003+08:00

I shall begin blogging again since i'm like glued to the internet most of the time these days unlike the past and as i believe that it will help me in my AW. I need to practice writing more. Hence, i sahll attempt and try my BEST to write in proper english. LOL
So, day 2 of sch today ended at about 10.10.
Life's awesome! i've got to treasure days like these when i get to end school so early and reach home before noon.
Shopped at booklink before going home. I swear that buying stationaries is theraupeutic. Back to the good old days where i will spend loads of time and money on stationaries, books and files. Super fun! =D
Sniffling away like a retard throughout the whole day. Nose please stop leaking. Seriously. Its really annoying. :(
came home, had my lunch and flu medicine before crashing for 3 hrs straight on the sofa. ;/
ok this week shall be a relax week~
i shan't be too hard on myself. heehee. =)

off to read up on my stats, biz law and complete my AW hw. meep.

2011-08-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

first day of school tmr.
i'm term feeling pretty pretty horrible what with alost of voice plus a super block nose.
what a way to start my school term in a brand new school.
i'm feeling like a little kid who is just going to start school.
all jumpy and not knowing what to expect.
smu feels so different from the other schools i attended. :(
i do hope that i adjust to the education system there asap.
it just feels really odd going to school, not sitting at the front row seats with my favourite girls.
doodling on my diary with yuxi nor 'attempting' to mug in the library while looking at past yearbooks.
school is going to feel so different without them.
oh well, i need to be more POSTIVE.
screw that negative mindset.
positive thoughts. God, see me through my first day and most important of all my next 4 years in SMU.
AMEN!

2011-08-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

Today marks the last day of my longest ever school holidays! =(
can't believe that 8 long months of holidays went by in a flash.
back to the days when i cldn't wait for A levels to end and to enjoy life.
One whole long list of stuffs that i wanted to do yet i've only completed so few. meep.
didn't complete a triathlon as i had hope, nor complete my piano exams nor take up french lesssons.
oh well, too late for all these regrets.
RECAP for the past 8mths.
December was spent doing office jobs, first ever legal clubbing, cruise with bestie!
triathlon trainings with tribob club from jan to april!
SOT from march till june and tuition jobs from january up till now.
Tuition lessons have become pretty much a chore and dreadful thing these days.can't wait for all of these to end by end september. hooray.
Butter-ed 3 times in the last 7 days.
Ended my last official clubbing session on friday pathetically. :(
sighh. but well at least it removes all desires to club ( for now at least.)
oh well, maybe its a blessing in disguise.
No more clubbing since school is starting.
Its time to start mugging. i really hope that i get back that muggerish attitude and mindset asap.
Desperate need to get at least an A- for every mod. sighh.
its time for new goals to be set from now till december!!
hope i survive the next 15 weeks of madness!=@

2011-07-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

typed out a post.
deleted it.
everything feels so complicated. oh well, maybe i'm just the one complicating things up.
acctg acad briefing tmr. finally getting to see asoc camp grp ppl. Awesome! miss camps + my grp mates.
i hope my bondue camp grp ppl will be a blast. plz no priestly, wierd self-righteous, annoying ppl. haha!
i want to club so badly. but i'm kinda freaking out over the injection person in the club. :(
i think my thoughts are not flowing too well. its pretty scrambled.
i shall attempt to sleep early thesefew days since i doubt i'll have the chance to once sch reopens which basically sucks.

Can't wait for clique dinner tmr!excited!!

2011-07-19T14:21:00.002+08:00

It has been such a long time since i last bothered to even come here to blog.
I can't believe that school is even starting already.
Less than 1month and i'll be back in school mugging my ass away. 7 months of holidays just flew by like that. To think i was stil counting down to the end of A Levels. Oh well, back were the days.
So many things that i wanted to accomplish but then again i sacrificed so much for sot.
triathlon, holidays and piano lessons.
Then again i've to sacrifice sot for uni and i've totally no idea if i can graduate from sot and this sucks like mad. :(

okay RECAP for the past 1 month.
23rdto 27th july- Mission trip to Bandung
it was pretty awesome since this is my first time going for a mission trip. Had a really great time with the kids at the orphanage and ministering to the people at archer youth community. The food there was really delicious and i think i gained like 1 kg back there. HAHA!

6th to 8th july- FTB run 2!
first time sleeping in tents! first camp in SMU! managed to make quite a number of friends through the camp.

9th to 10th july-STARRING SMU!
awesome bunch of ppl. =)

11th to 13th july- sports camp!
other than the sprained ankle, really enjoyed myself. heehee!
ADORABLE CLAN! yayyyyy. finale night!<3

16th to 19th july- ASOC CAMP!
the most chill camp! =D
fright night. food hunt.finale night. sentosa games.
woohooo~

okay and cips and academic briefing for the next 2 weeks before i go for my last camp!
BONDUE RUN 2!

2011-06-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Okay so here is a post before i go on my mission trip.
pretty much excited and nervous at the same time. I'm praying & hoping that everything goes well. =) quite excited as i'll be sharing my testimony with the youths for both cell grp+ service. A really cool experience.
Reflecting quite abit as i pack my luggage. Have i really chosen love this year?
and does choosing love requires me to like give in to people? pretty confused at times.
i know christians should be forgiving but what happens if the person abuses this kindness?

anyway, on a happier note met up with x.phiscovia today(except ty). Awesome time chatting. Love you guys. I'm lk retarded x 1million with you guys. being able to laugh, talk nonsense with you guys and not care how i may appear outwardly. Just want to say that i;m really thankful for you all being part of my life. Though the occasional unhappiness and all at times but we always make up in the end. <3

So, i'm attempting to go on a diet. Quite fail so far other than the fact that i exercise daily. does that count? hahaha.
okay shall slp soon!=D

2011-06-18T23:09:00.001+08:00

all my life i spend it pretending. especiially these few years.
i'm so tired God.
its just so difficult...

2011-06-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

and i wonder whats the point.
cant understand whats wrong with everything. why bother.
sometimes, i really think that i'd end up being the career minded yet sadly single sort of woman. maybe its because of my high expectations. whats the point of marrying down. isn't life about becoming better?
or maybe i cant seem to find any benefits of marriage other than the shared expenses & being less lonely cause there's someone with you all your life. that said its only of both parties can survive being with each other their whole life. whats the odds this day. marriage scares me. oh whatever, i shldn't even be thinking about such stuffs. theres more to life currently than marriage.
hate having to be the one having to go through all the shitty stuffs at home. what an eff up family. everyone's so screwed up.i shld have just bloody accept nus offer, stay in the hostel for the next 5 yrs. at least i can just pretend that everythings all right. i dont have to worry about all these things.
i'm so tired of being the sensible one in the family.
i hate being the one worrying all my life for my family.
all i want is to have a happy family.
is it that hard just to want one?

i feel so drained emotionally.....

2011-06-06T22:25:00.002+08:00

It's so going to be a busy day tomorrow. 3/4 tuition assignments, 1 after another. Oh God, give me strength & see me through. =)
I hope i do wake up on time to run tomorrow morning. So, i finally decided to go for a short 30mins run today after slacking away for the past 5 days. Why is it that i feel more unfit after each passing week of running? :(
i've no idea how i'm ever going to make it to the team in uni at this current state that i am in.
I've 3 book reviews and 10 sermons to complete by this month and i'm no where close to completion. Not to add on, May bible reading. I feel that i'm lagging so far behind. Then again, i wonder if its just me once again.
Its my holidays now actually. I should be enjoying the last 2 months of school holidays.sigh....
& to worsen all my woes, my pimple outbreak appears to be getting worst. WHY??!! :(
I need to go a diet to make myself feel more reassured but i lack ever determination.Gone is my runner's determination.
I've silently concluded to myself that i need to care more for my throat. Its been coming to a month and my throat still hurts, especially in the morning. I concluded that its all the alcohol and booze that is causing it.
So maybe its time for a clubbing hiatus for the time being. I do hope i succeed?

7June
1st tuition:0930-1230
2nd tuition: 1300-1430
3rd tuition: 1630-1800
4th tuition 1930-2100??
What an insane schedule please...

8june
0800-1300: SOT
1430-1600: Tuition
1645 onwards: gym,swim+dinner! =)
Church wide bs.

9 june
0800-1300: SOT
1500-1630: tuition
meet jc clique after that?

10june;
0800-1300: SOT
1430-1730: Tuition
1830: R3 Camp meeting

i <3 packed week! Time pass really quickly which is awesome.
WEEKENDS= tuition, exercise + WEEKEND WITH MIKE CORNELL. wooo~~~ awesome to the max! =D
13-15june: CAMP R3!
first time as a camp leader, i hope that all goes well, By God's grace! Amen!!!

22june: X.phiscovia! <3
Bandung mission trip: 23june-27june

June is going to be GREAT!

Can't wait for July School orientation camps!!! But then again. it means that school is starting!!
NOOOOOO.

2011-05-26T21:05:00.003+08:00

So, now my poor throat is dying and i feel like i'm in an absolute state of crap.
Even swallowing saliva hurts my throat.
Ladies night with the girls yesterday. I'm quite amazed by my alcohol tolerance.
UGHHH.
i look damn fugly fat in my photos.
TIME TO DIET.

& i can believe that i survived so well with just 2 hrs of sleep.

2011-05-22T22:55:00.004+08:00

please get better throat.
please stop coughing. :(
phelgm go away!
i hate soundly like a tranny.
i hate coughing non-stop. the feeling is absolutely horrible.
its so hard to teach in this state that i'm in.

Beware: random ramblings

This weekend has been anything but good.
i've no idea why but the feeling of depression is bad. screw it!
haven't been feeling like this for a long long time. i thought i'd only feel unexplainable depressed during exam periods but like i'm leading a stress-less life. so what explains it. meow.

life has been pretty aimless and goaless. I realised that i did not bother setting any goals for 2011.
i've currently no real goal in life.
In january and febuary all i wish was that A level results will be out.
In march, i wished that posting results will be out quickly.
In april and may, i wished that scholarship results will be out quickly.
As may is coming to an end and june is approaching, all i want id for school to start quickly.
I'm sick of life like this. I'm sick of leading such aimless life.
I need a social life. gawddd. everyday its so boring.
All i look forward to in life these days are days to meet my girls.

& now i feel as though i'm experiencing an identity crisis.
Sometimes, i've wierd thoughts in my head. I'm not even sure if i know who i am anymore.
At times, thoughts like this makes me scared of myself.
i miss clubbing. :(
i want to club so badly.
i wish i'll dare to stand up against you people but i guess i'm just like how you all see me.
i'll be the kind of daughter you all see me as. the type of daughter you all expect. the one that listens to whatever you all say.
the one who will never dare to rebel or go against you all like my sister.
i wish i've the guts like my sister. but then again i'm always so fearful. i always seem to be hiding behind the shadow of someone.
well, if only you people knew what i did in school back in secondary school days.
if only you all know what i'm thinking right now.
i bet you will be scared senseless.
i'm shocked that i even have such thoughts.
whatever....
i think going back to school will then make me sane once again.
screw life.

i thought going ___ will make me a better person
some days it works but i guess its days like this that i ....

I want to shop soon! i need new clothes. new dress.
new wardrobe.

2011-05-19T17:15:00.001+08:00

ACCEPTED OFFER.
its a relief. oh well, know i dont have to think about it anymore.=)
i'm pretty excited for uni to start. CAN'T WAIT!
uni sounds stressful yet fulling & fun. cant wait for the school camps to start. yay!

2011-05-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

So now, i've pretty much decided on which university to go to. Still getting over the fact that i got rejected by medicine. The truth hurts. Although i was pretty sure that i wasnt able to get through the interview,there was still this teeny weeny bit of hope that i'll be able to get it. Oh well. Guess fate aint on my side. At times like this, i really wish that my parents can afford me to send me to Aussie to do med. :(
I guess its time to move on. No point dwelling on what is impossible and getting upset in the end.

I guess its God's calling for me to go SMU.
After A level results,i prayed to God that if i get rejected from med i'll still be able to do ddp+ get a scholarship.
Since SMU has provided me with a scholarship with really great incentives + ddp, think thats where God wants me to be.
okay q sad cause i had always thought that i'll go NUS. Theres everything i want. Near to my house, exciting hall life and campus life, active cca. Everything that i wasnt of university.
Except that i didnt apply for any scholarship there. :(
i know my parents wants me to go SMU now. Why not? Free tuition fees, living allowance, exchange trip and laptop.

NEVERMIND
I shall be positive!
I WILL DO WELL IN SMU!! =D
I WILL BE ABLE TO HAVE GOOD FRIENDS!
I WILL BE HAPPY IN SCHOOL!
I'LL HAVE A FUN SCHOOL LIFE.

I'm kinda looking forward to the start of uni.
A new chpt of life is about to begin. =)

On a side note, i'm pretty pleased with myself. yayyy finished reading the book in 4 days and the book review in 45mins.
on to the next book! 2 more books in 14 more days! =0

2011-04-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY EASTER SUNDAY!

YAYYY QIYUWU WON BEST ACTOR. I'm super happy. =DDD

but why didnt jeanette aw win best actress??!! she totally ought to. I mean her acting was superd and all. I feel super sad for her. :(((

So after the end of medicine interview on thursday, it means that it is now time to concentrate on sot now. =)

i'm lagging so far behind man. DIE!

However, i'm still pretty pleased with myseld. I've completed SOT exercise 2,3,4 today. There's this sense of satisfaction admist the blanks here and there. I seriously cant seem to find those answers and i feel too tired to think too hard. HAHAHA!!

Thursday after interview was spent mopping around the library and out for dinner with ty and sf. I thank God for bringing such great friends into my life. They just know the things to say to make me feel better. Thanks.=)

Friday was just tuition from 9am to 3.30pm. It was pretty insane. I really need a holiday. :(

After that, just slacked around at home watching some movie showed on tv beofre going out for dinner with jc clique. Awesome chit chat plus shopping. HOORAYY! I bought 3 tops and a super chic and pretty maxi dress. I never ever thought i'll buy a maxi dress! i cant wait to wear out.

Weekends seem to pass really quickly once again. More weekends please. Then again, weekends and weekdays don't seem to make much of a difference to me these day. I should probably quit most of my tuition jobs by end may/june and enjoy the remaining of my holidays. I have the remaining life to work hard. I should rest now. =p

SMU scholarship tomorrow. I shall pray that all goes well. AMEN.

(i know that you are for me

I know that you will never

forsake me in my weakness)

this stanza just keep running through my head after service till now. I believe its really God's promises for me. That he'll always be there for me. =D

i need MORE FAITH. to really trust and commit my future to him =D

i shall sleep now! I still got to wake up super early tmr. ONCE AGAIN....

when can i sleep in again....

Life is insane

2011-04-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

I've finally found the time to actually sit and down and blog. =) The past few days have been i sanely crazy. Never ending applications to fill up, interviews to go(which are still on-going) ,SOT, tuition jobs and trainings which seem to sap every ounce of energy that i have. I'm glad that i've been accepted into double degree acctg and biz in SMU. Its like really a sense of relief to know that there's a space for me in the local uni with a course i dont mind So on the same day, i actually received the letter that i've shortlisted for medicine. God really is AWESOME. Has always been. =) My little testimony that i shared with my cg ppl and family. God is GOOD! yayyy. & To think i was worrying that i'd have to go for smu scholarship interview on my own but oh yay yj is going to. HAPPY i'm finally getting to meet her. Never ending research that i've to do and tuitions and Sot but i'm pretty pleased that i get to actually run/swim/bike daily. =) ughhh shall sleep soon. I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY TMR TO SERVE. =0

2011-03-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

Aussie fair tomorrow. I cant decide if i should go. I cant decide of i should just go overseas to study. :(
To fellowship or to go for Aussie fair and register for med school. But then again 400k is no small amount of $$$$
sighhh.

Tuition job from 9-12pm, followed by 12.30-2pm. =)
Swam for 30mins and ran 45mins at ty's condo pool and gym. Oh man i need to do more arm weights!
I need to pull harder when i swim to travel further afterevery stroke.
& realised that i love running immediately after i swim. For some reason i think swimming helps to increase my lung capacity and its like i can run much faster and longer after that.
I could even talk to ty non-stop while running just now. Awesomeeee. haha.

So local uni or overseas med school.
FRUSTRATED. I CANT DECIDE.
but then again i really want to do medicine so badly.
I really dont know what to do.
God let your will be done....

SUNTEC TOMORROW. YAYYY!!

2011-03-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

Physically and mentally, i feel pretty drained.
Tough week this week. Lots of decision making. Ok, i've decided to just stick to local university.
Let God's well be done.=)
Dentistry job shadowing next wendesday and accounting+ scholarship interview next friday. Omggoshhh got a shock when they suddenly called me today.
I shall just pray that all goes well. =D

awesome track workout today.
To break all mental and physical boundaries.

2011-03-09T00:12:00.001+08:00

OMG. uni admissions and scholarship applications are killing me. i feel so so so stressed.
its like SOT early in the morning till afternoon. Tuition jobs in the late afternoons and more tuitions or trainings when i return home. & b the time i'm home i'm dead beat but theres still applications unsettled, essays waiting to be written. ughh. my brightsparks applications not filled and my MINDEF essay is not written.
freak stress.
God give me strength.

2011-03-05T02:30:00.003+08:00

A level results are out. 5 distinctions.
okay dokey. i won't say that i'm overjoyed but lets just say that its within expectations & that for once i'll get to receive an award on Founders day next year.
i hope i get into the course i want to.

2011-03-01T14:34:00.002+08:00

Training today was awesome. Loved today's track workout. heehee. =D

28 FEB
Slacking around at home, tuition, followed by swim training at Farrer park.
training was fun!
Warmup: 400m,8x25m of sprints
Main set: 3x100m, 300m with paddles,3x100m
Cooldown:200m kick, 300m with pull buoy
total: 2000m

heehee, i think i'm better in 100m workouts. its when i overtake most of the other swimmers in my lane.
haha and the coach was telling me that i need to be more confident, to dare to go faster. his accent was so strong that i had no idea what he was saying at first and i was nodding away half the time. It was only until the very end that i finally understood what he was saying. & i was like ohhhhh. hahaa!!!

1 MARCH
Track training was fun today.at least it wasnt long dreadful 1km/2km/3km intervals.
Workout: 2min hard,2 min easy, 3 min hard, 2min easy, 4 min hard, 2 min easy, 4 min hard, 2 min easy, 3 min hard, 2 min easy, 2 min hard, 2 min easy, 2 min hard, 2 min easy, 3 min hard, 2 min easy, 3 min hard, 2 min easy, 2 min hard, 2 min easy.
Pretty long workout but its interesting and fun!! =))
met shufen up for lunch. yaayyy htht. heehee.
pretty tired, shall sleep before going for tuition job.

physio, accounting?
sighh it all depends on results. oh welll.
3more days.

2011-02-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

i just had the worst cramps ever. Pop super alot of panadols. :(
it felt better after a while so i went to run 80mins.(10 odd km)
sighhh i look bigger each time i exercise. LOL.
random, but man the pain feels like its coming back again.
I feel so stress teaching others. Its worst than being a student.
i couldnt really answer my p6 science student question today. It feels horrible.
I think the student could tell that i'm unsure too? ughhh
The students are all having common test this week.
I think i'm more nervous and scared then them.
Theres the pressure to ensure that they perform. sucks.
why's life so stressful?:(

2011-02-25T12:50:00.002+08:00

stress! stress! stress!
i finally know how stressful it is to be a tutor. :(
sighhh its like when the students dont score i'm SCREWED!!! cause dont score=fired! ughh this si way mroe stressful than studying can. Its like me studying. LOL! no worst cause some students just refuse to put in any effort and think that tutors are miracle workers. To let them score without trying.

Decided to train at Gombak stadium yesterday.
2km warm up follwed by stretches.
10x400m at 1min rest intervals.
gosh super shocking!!! i actually did 1st 7 sets at 1min 47secs. All the same timing. super cool.
Decided to slow down at 8th set. Did 1min 52sec without pushing.
9th set at 1min45sec and 10th set at 1min40sec. yay!

Did another 3.2km of tempo run. Its so fun to run when the weather is cool and theres like no sun at all!! =D
haha.
total: 9.2km

Saw the national team people training there. gosh its like super cool. their sprinting is like super wow. its super fast and nice! & i saw this nat team girl sprinter. Heard that she's like some national record holder. super cool can. She's like tall, pretty, tan and sporty. PLUS she sprints super well. nicer than the guys actually. haha. JEALOUSSS.

piano lesson today. I had every intention of waking up early to practice but FAILED. haha.
i need to practice my piano more!!!!

2011-02-24T12:37:00.002+08:00

i feel so tired after two consecutive swimming training. :((((

Training at BV swim complex last night. I'm still really amused by how the swim complex is surrounded by hdb buildings! but man i dont mind please if i stay there. its like a condo! haha. i wish theres a pool so near my house.

Warm up: 100m FS, 600m FS with pull buoy, 100m kick
Main set: 5x20m all out sprint,
2x100m,300m with paddles,2x100m,300m with paddles
Cool down: 100m kick,3x100m FS
total:2300m/46 laps

Training this morning at Queensway swim complex. It should be called commonwealth swim complex since its like just almost next to commonwealth station! oh welll...

Recovery Session
400m FS
600M FS with fins =D
200m kick with pull buoy
200m FS with pull buoy
200m kick with pull buoy
200m Freestyle

total:1800m/36 laps
Ughhh i need to start practicing my piano pieces! crapppp.:(
Shall take a short nap then start practicing.
Track training tonight. Leg muscles please survive. yay.

2011-02-23T12:21:00.002+08:00

First thing in the morning. The school library called to have me pay the storybook fines that i've owned them together with the storybook. Annoying!!! the book was stolen together with my bag last year during some race.
Crap! fines together plus the book=$50 at least. This is so unreasonable! since it has been a police case, shouldnt it be like not counted? plus no returning= no A Level results. zzzz what the?

So, did 30 mins of abs exercises today followed by 1hour of cycling. ( alternating between easy followed by resistance). Hopefully i can then increase my riding speed.

HSA talk this week! yayy shall go find out more about my radiography.

2011-02-22T14:46:00.002+08:00

i'm so happy that i'm finally able to blog. =)
it sucks to have my computer breakdown, internet connection crazy etc.
i miss blogging. So lets see, i've stopped blogging for about 6 weeks. Well, it feels like 6 months though like seriously.
Everyday feels pretty much mundane. So, its like training, tuition jobs, church and occasional family dinners.
I'm finally training for a triathlon. LIKE FINALLY.
i suck in swimming, biking probably not much better and i dont even seem to be improving in my run.
hmmm maybe i need more run sessions. ughhh.
i need to hit 5min/km and below once again! it sucks to be unable to. HATE IT. i want to have my speed back. :(

anw, heard that results will be out on the 4th of march which is about 9 days away?
hopefully all is well.
i shall watch some nice dramas which i've been so deprived of before taking my nice little nap.
Life's amazing without school.

2011-01-10T10:37:00.003+08:00

10th day of the new year & i've no goals for the year yet.

Goals from today till march ( before i collect my results)
1. Read my bible & pray daily. i got to make this a daily habit!
2. Train as per scheduled. Not be LAZYYY.
3. Save money monthly, cab less often!
4. Start doing volunteer work
5. Diet successfully
6. i'll think abt it agn.

2011-01-10T10:33:00.001+08:00

hoorayyy! so today has been the day that i've been looking forward since i cant remember when!=)
Last day of work. The feeling is SPLENDID.. yayy so now i've got more time for myself to do what i like and all.
3rd tuition assignement at night today. Just hope that it'll all be okay.
i'm counting down to 6pm.
What a long long long wait. ughhh.

7.5 hrs more. sighhh.

2011-01-07T15:55:00.003+08:00

my mum is the best.
' if you want to go clubbing, i or jiejie must go with you.'
wth? who wants to go with my sister. like seriously. her friends are like a million times worst than me.
they are the real gangsterish kind of people that i have no wish to mix with.
plus they smoke and have pre-marital you know what.
seriously, they're a BILLION times worst than my friends. how can i be safer with her?
Annoying shit.

don't keep telling me that i shld know whats right from wrong.
cause to me, i dont see what is wrong with clubbing.
wtf man.
FML.

stupid parents so demanding and annoying.
life sucks man.

2011-01-06T16:48:00.002+08:00

Oh man, i thought giving tuition was a better option than working in the office like cause i'll have more time for myself. But oh well, am totally wrong.
Its hard to arrange according to what i want since most tuiiton jobs i get are for primary school students who want only afternoon.
But well i shall be postitive. At least my mornings and saturdays are totally free.
I must be motivated and train on my own then. i hope. :(

2011-01-05T10:30:00.000+08:00

i never swear as much as i did today.

2011-01-05T10:16:00.003+08:00

So much bottled up anger and frustration.
I really hate you people.
I really hope that i'll do well for my A level and get a scholarship overseas.
7 YEARS ABROAD.its the best.

i try to convince myself that i'm happy.
its a lie. absolutely.
stop trying to say you know me well blah blah blah all those crap bullshit. sick of hearing you harping on those shit.
cause in reality you dont know me at all. All you know is this image that you convince and want to believe in.
stop being such a farktart.
yell for all i care. do you think i care?
freak hell NOOO.

do i have any happy memories? well hell NO.

2011-01-05T08:58:00.001+08:00

FML.
Girls cry over breakups or friendships.
The times that i cry are always because of my family.
Screw everything.

2011-01-04T10:36:00.001+08:00

I NEED TO COME UP WITH NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS FOR 2011.
its already the 4th day of the new year.

2011-01-04T10:22:00.003+08:00

Hello, so i'm stuck at work with absolutely nothing to do. Just hoping that time will pass quickly!
3.5moredays! i will survive. heehee.

waiting for the cruise pics from weiru dslr!!
I need to remember to get the camera cable from my sister!!!!
ONE MONTH OF PICTURES!!! SHIT.
010111
Family day. =)
Brunch with parents again.
& I WAS SO BORED OR THE VERY FIRST TIME SINCE A LONG LONG TIME.
So, i make my mum watched taiwan idol dramas with me. heehee, i swear its addictive man. Cause in the end it was my mum watching through out. LOLL!

020111
First church service of the year!=)
I want to have God's dream in this coming year, 2011.
Fellowship at T1 changi airport, Ashton.
There was this pretty waitress there and so my table of people were all going crazy. Guys&girls alike. Super funny. So we had her take our orders, utensils, orders again. i bet she suspects sth cause each time she walks away, we burst out laughing! joke!
& the toilet entrance at T1 is super confusing. I went in there twice & i got lost twice. :(
Mono deal at ashton.
Home at 5plus.
Grandma's place for weekly family dinner. =)
Mono deal with cousins once again.

030111
Work. Only one word to describe it. BORING
met ty to gym at her condo. Ran 5km plus plus my 12sets of core!
dinner at west mall till 10plus.
yayyy, ty changed her job. So finally,we can meet up for dinner often. wootsss!!

Looking forward to clubbing at PLAY tomorrow with cross people once again. HAPPY.

So, from next week onwards i'm going to be a full time tutor till uni starts.
Anyone needs a tutor?
CALL MEEEE! hahaha.

2011-01-01T09:57:00.002+08:00

Blog post about my cruise trip. =D

28dec
I went for my cross junior training. It was amazing.
Warm up-20mins
Drills which i swear are 10 times more than what we used to do.
Fartleks! 10 rounds. OMGGG i'm amazed that i actually completed it. I thought i was going to stop at the 5th round. i love speed workouts more than long runs now.
Cool down-10mins, 10 core exercises, lunges at the track,10mins cool down again.

i think i ran a total of 10km that day!=)
Rushed home to get some stuffs and went out and meet ty.
Lunched at Far East with her then shopped around. I bought 4 new dresses.
So in total, i've EIGHT new dreeses for 'Chinese New year'. Woots. my amazing excuse for purchasing so many dresses. I want to buy nice baggy tops, any suggestions?
Trained down to bugis and we were far too tired to walk any longer. Slacked at Bk till 7 and trained down to stadium to meet cg for Pasta Mania. Cam whored!
Joke of the day: Ward 12!! haha.
Home at 11plus.

29dec
Brunch with parents, pack my luggage for cruise trip.
Cross country fare well dinner. Stayed around for a while before rushing to vivo to meet wr.
CRUISE!!!!
dinner followed by some comedian performance. We bought this bag of popcorn which was highly deceiving! It smelled so good, HOWEVER it was tasteless. Yucks! i think we threw more than half the bag away.
Explored the cruise and cam whored away.
Back to cabin at 2plus.

30dec
We totally intended to wake up at 6plus. However, we overslept and woke up at only 9plus. Rushed for bfast which ends at 10!
Swimming at the pool, played the slide which i cant seem to go down,suana then lunch.
Disembarked at some place near KL. it was super ulu. There was like absolutely nothing. LOL.
So, we decided to go back to the cruise.
Gym-ed for close to 2 hours.
Ran for 1 hour plus(10.5km!) yay, first time that i ran for so long on a threadmill.
Did loads of weight training.
Dinner time followed by some acrobatics performance.
Christmas Chocolate party at 10.30pm!
it was awesome man! Love the donuts. heehee.
Proceeded to the gym again. Did core exercises for almost an hour.=)

31dec
We woke up at 7am! Finally. Western restaurant for bfast. We were the early birds. First to queeue up! LOL
I love American style bfast buffet! All the pastries.weeeeee!
Gymed right after that.
core exercises, cycled for 20mins. ran for 5km. I think the people at the gym could totally recognise us after two days! HAHA.
Rushed back to the cabin to pack the luggage.
Last meal at the cruise.
Back to spore! =0
I think all that we did at cruise was eat, sleep and GYM! haha.
Cruise is freaking addictive! I want to go there again next month!!!!

Shopped at vivo with mum&dad but left shortly after that cause i was seriously dying.
Concussed by the time i reached home.
So i was far too tired to go clubbing and decided to spend countdown with daddy and mummy!
Dinner& drinking with them!=)))

2010-12-27T15:16:00.003+08:00

I'm looking forward to 6pm today. Cause after 6pm today, it means that i'll have the next SIX DAYS off! i'm so excited! seriously. who won't. a nice long holiday break before the year ends and to kick start a brand new year. =)

24th dec
Explored new running routes while running in the morning. Mum gave a pedometer for christmas!=) its makes me more motivated to go for long runs now. &&& i realised that there is a park connector from my house to west coast park. Ran there and back and clocked a total of about 8km. Took about an hour. Noob much. Can't believe that i'm so slow now. :/
Polyclinic with daddy & mummy followed by brunch.
Came home and i took a 4 hours nap! 12pm to 4pm.
Followed by aunt's house for christmas celebration.
I ate really alot. Think i went for 3 rounds?
Plus the log cake was damn yummy. I love log cakes!!
Monopoly deal throughout the night with my cousins.
Gift exchanged, drinking and watched 200 pounds beauty.
I swear the show is encouraging plastic surery man.
sighhh, if only plastic surgery carries 0% risk, i'll gladly go for it!!

25th dec
OVERSLEPT!:(
i was supposed to go for expo service but i totally slept till about 10am. Aerobics with mum before going for yj christmas party with ade,faith,ser,zorn,sunny.
Ate follwed by mono deal till about 4plus.
Left and went for family dinner.
Steamboat, but nahh i concluded i really dont like steamboats.
Proceeded to vivo for shopping. Yay, i bought 4 new dresses. Love them alot!!
side track, i bought 5 pairs of shoes last thursday evening!!!!!
& i finally got a pair of gladiator! Love it.
Supper at wang cafe. My sister and i bought sundaes and fries from Mac.
Shit, if only i don't grow fat easily like my sister.

26th dec
Church service.
Met at clementi with Alice. Trained down together with her.
Drama was great. =D
fellowship at marina square with cell group.
Mono deal once again from 1 plus till 5plus.
Trained to tpy to meet yuxi,and and miyuki. Clar's house for bbq xmas party.
Mono dealed, cam whore and more feasting.

Alright, so that probably concludes my entire weekend of christmas.
I MUST REMEMBER TO UPLOAD THE PICTURES FROM MY CAMERA!!
its been over 2 weeks, shittt!
& thk God for the blessing. My aunt is going to get me a bike. Going out with her to get my bike later.
Wootsss! & i'm going to train with Ac cross team tmr morning. I hope i can even run.
Cruise with weiru from the 29th to 31st dec. coming back around mid afternoon.
I want to go clubbing after that!
i shall pursuade people to go with me. heehee.

Just 2.5 hrs more.

2010-12-23T16:52:00.000+08:00

who works during christmas eve?
wth! i'm going to just enjoy my christmas eve. whatever.
heehee. =)

2010-12-23T16:41:00.003+08:00

Read at your own risk. Its going to get boring.

My blog has probably never been as active as now.
Cant help it. When theres really nothing to do,i guess the only thing i can do is to turn to my blog. =)
The year is ending in exactly 8 days time.
Woots decided to do a mini reflection of 2010 since i'm really really bored now.
what to say of 2010:" huh, its going t be 2011 already! thats so soon!''
Exactly, this year went pass so quickly. It felt like ZOOMMMM.

first four months was spent mostly just training and studying.
okay maybe training 70%, studying 30%.
Broke quite a number of PBs during my season this year & had lots of fun training.
I found my new found love Intervals during track season training.
I loveD 400m intervals. Past tense as i dont think i'll like it now due to my absolute lack of fitness. nvm, i'll build it all back my feb next year!
the next 7plus months were just spend mugging,mugging and more endless mugging.
Life was pretty much boring. Can't remember much. All i could remember was skipping school, studying at home and library when nearing to A levels.
& so its december now.
My incessant whinning to like probably everyone, endless updates on fb and twittwe due to my extremely high stress level.
Plus the endless lists of stuffs that i planned to do after A levels even before the start of A levels.

However, Life is still feels pretty boring now. :/
working and occasional meet up with x.phiscovia, jc clique,cross ppl & church ppl.
on a happier note, i finally went clubbing legally this year.
yay! nvm, i believe life will be greater and more fun next year.
I love Ladies night. Regular ladies night clubber. heehee.=)

okay, its time to think of some 2011 goals.
New year, new goals.
i'm 19 next year.gosh, now i really do feel old.

2010-12-23T13:11:00.001+08:00

typed one whole post.
decide to delete it.
Ohwell, i must have the capacity to love even those who annoys the shit out of me.

2010-12-23T09:42:00.002+08:00

Hello so its the eve of christmas eve. I 'm so not experiencing the christmas mood. haha! maybe i need to listen more to nice christmas carols.=)
So went for Sunny' christmas party after work yesterday. Met the crossies at boon lay mrt and went over to his uncle's house for the party. Ate super alot of food. there was like so much food!
& the house television set is damn cool! its like connected to the internet. Cool much man.
Monpoly deal. Lost all 3 rounds. :( but never mind i had fun.=DD
the last round with 6 of us took like forever to end!
Left the house at 10plus and went to zouk with them.
Mambo jumbo night. Haha! the songs were horrible.
ok and yj and i were busy exclaiming how we were never ever coming for mambo jumbo nights again. But ohh well had lots of fun dancing and drinking with them.
I miss clubbing truck loads! but yay i've finally found clubbing partners.
Clubbed till 4plus and cabbed home.
Not bad paid only 15plus for the taxi ride. I was still super worried that it will cost over 30bucks.
Woke up at 7 in the morning. Lets just hope my 1.5 hrs of sleep can last me through.
Christmas shopping later! =D
woots can't wait fro 6pm to come once again.

2010-12-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

So once again i'm at work counting down to 6pm which is like 2.5hrs away.
Tick tock, tick tock. the clock is moving so slowly.
I'm excited for christmas. Lots of food. =)
i want to go clubbing. Vera lets go quickly asap k!!
haha. and i'll try my best to diet to fit into a bikini. LOL!
i'm dying at work. :((((((((((
Crossie party later. yayyy i get to meet them again finally.

2010-12-21T12:25:00.002+08:00

So i'm like counting down to christmas which is just 3 days away. Cant wait.
I'm in dire need of a holiday. A break.
Work is such a chore. Hate it like shit.
I'm seriously thinking of quiting.
Its ruining my life. wth.
i shall decide again after my cruise trip.
Till then i shall just convince myself i love to work.
omg, sorry God for lying. haha!

2010-12-17T09:24:00.001+08:00

I want to have another buffet meal. crap! :(
Gym-ed yesterday at sports complex on my own. My first ever time gyming other than in schoo. quite fun, i guess. Ran for about 6km and cycled for 20mins at RMP of 90. I wanted to go over to the weights session to lift some weights but they were all filled with guys. awkward much. So, decided to heed home.
guilty dinner!:(
Mum cooked instant noodles with fishcakes for me at 9pm.
sighhhh, no wonder i never lose weight. haha.
i want to gym daily!!

2010-12-16T11:54:00.002+08:00

okay, so i'm now at work with absolutely nothing to do since my boss is on leave today.
Spend the past few hours website hoppping, trying to pass time.
I thought if changing my blogskin but apparently nothing appears appealing to me.
So, i've decided to keep it just it is.
I shall upload prom picures maybe this weekend. I've delay it for far too long. ops!
now i shall think of how i'm going to spend my next 5 hours. :(

Gym-ing tonight. Yes, i need to lose weight.
sigh i'm such a sucker for buffet so its really hard to keep off the weight.

2010-12-15T15:27:00.004+08:00

I detest the very idea of working.
I hate having to stay in the office and waste half of my precious day away.
Working deprives me of so much social life and fun.
But no choice i need money and my parents wont give me any.
Ugh, whatever. wtf?
Life sucks anyway.

2010-12-03T14:55:00.001+08:00

PTL!=)
first job interview and i've gotten the job. happy much. =)
okay time to enjoy the last 3 days of my freedom.

2010-12-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

hello, i'm a happy girl!=)
A levels are over!woootsssss. oh well,but i don't really feel that excited.
haha, maybe reality will only set in after a few days.
whatever. i'm still happy.
ughhhh. i need to look for a job soon. =(

After biology paper 1 today, went down to watch the juniors train with yj,f and a.=)
i miss training! i miss long runs and intervals!
i want to train with them.
but working=can't go down for their training.
;(((((((
sad face. ohhh well, i hope i get to train with them on saturday mornings at least!

job interviews tomorrow!
i shall pray that i get at least one of the jobs!
shall read my storybooks.
woots, life's awesome!

2010-12-01T17:36:00.005+08:00

I realised that i've barely studied for biology paper 1. :( sighhh. i really can't help it. Totally no mood to do so.
i'm in this 80% holiday mood.
Renewed my passport today. Finally!
after it expired for half a year. well, this just shows how long i've not been overseas.

Now, all i hope and pray is that 2 december will come quickly and that i find a job SOON!
i need money to spend. sighhhh.
Can't wait for this misery to end.

On a happier note, yayyy going to watch juniors train tomorrow after paper followed by tanning at sentosa.
something random. I was just looking at my stats and im seriously surprise that there are still people visiting this blog.
surprise surprise.
okay, i really need to start on my bio. :(

2010-11-30T13:58:00.002+08:00

My computer internet is finally back. Finally.

2 more days to biology paper 1. Cant wait. =)

Shopping spree from wednesday to friday.

Attempted to stude for the past few days but oh well fail like crazy. sighhh.

Theres like a gazillion distractions every single moment.

I want to get a job!!!

oh well, shall update again when i feel less lazy.

2010-11-24T00:51:00.002+08:00

A levels are 'unofficially' over. It has been ages since i've yearn to be able to blog this!
Life has never felt as awesome as this, seriously. I bet it'll only get better after 2nd Dec. Cant wait, absolutely.
Town with the girls after paper. We had our manicure. Gosh, i feel so pampered! its been ages since i had a decent manicure. Saphora has really NICE make up kits. I'm so going back there tomorrow to get my make up set. =)
Dinner at Coffee Club at 10plus. Talk about dieting, oh well.
Haji lane with the girls tomorrow. Excited!
But first i need to pack my ants infected room. =(

2010-11-19T21:35:00.001+08:00

i wonder if i suffer from mental disorder.
snorts. i dont find any one who gets as paranoid as me after every single paper.

2010-11-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

i shld stop being so paranoid.
i should stop thinking of the worst.
i should stop imaginating things.

2010-11-16T17:59:00.003+08:00

sighhh. this is like by far one of my worst paper.
Screwed up my spa planning. :(
p2 structured wasnt ideal either.
I feel so depressed that its making me lose the motivation to study. Horrible! :(
Sometimes, i wonder what's the use of studying and mugging so hard when its such papers that come out.
Alright, shall ocus on bio, ECONS and chem p1.
I need to score for chem p1 to get my A still.

2010-11-14T21:49:00.003+08:00

A levels is finally half over. Another 3 weeks and all this torture will be over.
I feel really tired mugging. I look at my notes, my notes look back at me. Pissed off!
What makes it worst is planning. Frustrated! i really hate planning. Its like totally annoying like shit.
I just need to come on line to blog and vent all me bottled up frustration.
Frustration over the never ending A levels, humans and over every single thing.
i need to start studying for planning now. :(((

2010-10-23T00:54:00.003+08:00

Less than 15 days to A levels!
this is totally insane. i've no idea what im doing here. amazing.
Gp mock yesterday and i was seriously desperately trying my best to stay awake. i shall never attempt to wake up at 3.30am to study again!
After mock exam met ty and sf for sakura! =))))
yay! i miss you too alot alot alot. Yay ate damn alot. However, i'm really sad cause i did not really eat my favourite deserts. nevermind, i shall start from cakes next time!
Walked to west coast plaza and i bought my Marie stickers! they're super cute! they're pop up stickers. I was so excited that i immediately paste it on my netbook. They're all pink.Love it!
Omg and apparently we just sat there for 4 hours past and talk. hth talk.
There's so much things that i want to do after A levels!
work,sports,overseas cip trips, overseas trip with my girls, piano lesson, french lesson, dance and the list goes on.
shitt and i stilll cant decide of i should be a part time secondary school math teacher! :(
i'm not sure if i can cope facing 40 students and not get tongue tied. haha!

okay time to study for micro econs now!

2010-10-18T01:11:00.003+08:00

1.21am.

In my attempt to save money and save the trees, i've decided to stop printing stuffs from Lms.
However, using the computer to do my work= distractions. :(
Resist! thats the very thing i've to need to learn how to do.
3 more weeks only. argghhhh.
Mock exams are starting tomorrow. I'm scared like shit. I feel SUPER unprepared. I think that there's still alot of little stuff here and there that i need to re-memo and recap= DIE!
My brain feels extremely saturated now. Though i've seriously no idea whysince i've been so not on task today. :(
aikk new distractions what with data plan easily available on my iphone now.
Oh well, i'm hoping this novelty wears off soon. Maybe tomorrow. Lol.
I guess i shall sleep early, like now and wake up early tomorrow to continue again. =))

ps: yay! i'm getting wireless for my netbook= able to use Lms application outside= study more outside.

i'm scared. 3 more weeks. i really need to do well.

2010-10-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

Happy much. =)
Productive studying these two days. Finally. I've decided that studying out works much better for me. At home, i'll probably use taking a nap as an excuse for me being better able to stay up late to mug.
Starbucks at Bpp with ty on friday. Lunch/Dinner at pizza hut.
& gosh i was like super shocked when i returned back to my seat to find my bag missing. This apparently anal guy actually took my stuff and pass it to the staffs there.
Oh well, thank goodness this other table of people left shortly and i had a table all to myself agn.
Mugged till 10pm & i feel pretty satisfied completing cjc and mjc math prelim papers.=)
Supper at Kfc. Popcorn chicken!

Loner day at the library today. I feel pretty much impressed with myself. I actually mug non stop(minus the few occasional toilet breaks) from 10am to 7pm all alone. =)
First time ever that i'm on task! since a really long time. Sense of achievement. Finally.
& yes i've finally decided to start on my macro econ notes. Since the very last time i read my notes on trade=prelims. LOL.

I've decided. The school library,public library and starbucks will be my 2nd home for the next 3 weeks. Shit its just 3 more weeks. I'm seriously freaking out now.
Die.

2010-10-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

Its days like this i feel so tired of studying.
I stare at my notes and i just cant seem to bring myself to study.
Prelims were long over. Mock prelims are starting in 5 days.
Its only one more month to prelims. By right, i should be mugging my ass off right now but instead im obviously not.
Sometimes, i feel so tired.
Tired of studying hard and not doing as how i expect myself to do.
I've no idea what i want to be in the future.
Medicine,accountancy,hotel management. I've no idea.
Sometimes i wish that i can just live a life of hallucination and dreams, cutting myself away from reality.Aint it nice living in the fairy tale sort of world.
I'm tired of life not going the way i wish for it to be.
I'm tired of going school. Just one more official day in school and i can bid school goodbye.
I cant wait for A levels to be over.
I want to be the girl i'm not now.
I wish i could club,stay out,have fun and maybe waste my time away till i'm sick of it.
Or maybe i should move to an unknown place and stay in soliditary.

2010-09-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

Prelims are officially over. =)
well, but theres still A levels to look forward too but oh well shall just take one step at a time.
The past few days were like semi-end of prelims to me, spent my weekends slacking away, monday and tuesdays watching da vinco code, he's just not into you, cheaper by a dozen 2 and angels and demons. Talk about amazing.
Wednesday was plain hard core mugging, practically trying to squeeze all the biology information into my brain in the library with ty.
TODAY was AWESOMEEE to the max. A sort of pretty successful class outing with about 16 people? yeah. Considering that the past outings had only less than 10 people who even showed up. ouchh.
Beach volleyball ( which i suck at it due to my slow reflexes, but i improved in the end!!=) ), followed by swim/floating around in the sea, beach vball again and sun tanning with clar for 3hours. =D
i grew a few shades darker! Love my new tan.
Carls Junior for dinner and for once i actually ate half a burger and got full. Maybe my diet is atually working. doubt so though.
&&& i feel so determined to loose weight. Run daily and cut down on my calories.
Hopefully this even works.
&& i want to do a triathlon next year, MUST.
I want to enter NUS biathlon team.
who knows maybe i'll even do an Ironman next time. =)
toodles!

2010-08-28T01:12:00.003+08:00

END OF PRELIMS MODE!
i've just a sudden urge to blog again. blows the imaginary layer of dust away.
my blog is literally dead, i swear. & i seriously doubt anyone even bothers to visit this dead site. oh well,haha. Reading through my old blog posts and well many happy,retarded and funny memories. =)
I'm really happy! One last paper for prelims. Biology p1. Shall slack today before starting again tomorrow afternoon. 10hours of sleep tonight! i need to sleep so badly. my eye bags are pretty gross now. :(
Step up 3 with the girls after our paper today. The show was AWESOMEEE!LOVE IT! the main guy is like so super good looking somemore.& after watching the show, it makes me want to dance so badly too. haha! i want to take up dance lessons after A levels but i've no idea which dance course i should take up. LOL.
shopped around at 313 before leaving at 10ish. Really wanted to cab home but yay i resisted and took public transport instead though i was so tired. Proud of myself. =DD I managed to save money.
& i saw Sun at cini just now.WOOTSSS. face to face.
& i was looking through my old photos and its really depressing. My face is so fat now compared to the past! The point is that i was not even slim last time which means i must be near obese now. sighh. self consoling myself that its just A levels but still its a lousy excuse to grow fat.
Desperate need to start exercising and go on a diet to prevent my face from evolving into a FULLER MOON.

Its not even the end of prelims and already i've like this one whole long list of things that i want to do after A levels.
Work, cross country training,start swimming again, dance lessons,overseas trip with clique and classates, earn money for my macbook and shopping spreesss! =)

Exactly 2 more months to A levels.
Go for the dream results!
i can do it.
i MUST run tomorrow.

i want to watch movies! movie marathon!!!

2010-06-27T16:01:00.002+08:00

service with pst kong was AWESOMMEEEE TTM today.
the feeling of a one big family. =) i like it.

During the camp night session 2 weeks ago, God spoke to me about re-commiting my life back to him once again and he reminded me of the dreams and goals i had set at the start of the year Visions and dreams that seemed so far and distant. Indeed it has really been a long time since i was able to feel his presence so tangible in the midst of a church meeting and cry in his presence. thinking once again. Once again, God reminded me of the promises i made to him at the start of the year and the many occasions when he came true for me during the darkest moments of my life. I was also reminded of my secondary 4 years back in N317. Despite my O level year, that was really the time when i saw myself grow stronger in the Lord , see myself serve him even more, attend cg,service,pm at riverwalk during the week of prayer and still did okay for my prelims and o level. I liked what pst said. That indeed God is not blind to the sacrifices you've make. Even though going to church= having less time to study, God indeed multiplied my time and enabled me to finish studying what i had to. Although having 9 points was sort of disappointing to me, i'm however grateful for that result at the very end. If i had scored better, i will never see myself in ACJC, i will not have a chance to be educated in a christian environment , be surrounded around christian friends , study in a more relaxing and enjoyable environment, immerse myself in a brand new culture and also be part of the GREAT AC CROSS COUNTRY TEAM. <33333
i'm proud to be part of the Ac family and i've no regrets entering Ac! =D
Minghui asked me what my goal was at then end of 2008. I remembered telling her that i wanted to rise up to become a connect group leader. I had the chance in 2009 yet i fell back to where i originally started off in 2010 when i was once again in a new environment.
Talking about my christian walk earlier with my cg ppl had me thinking about my entire 3plus year plus almost 4 year walk with Christ in CHC.
I always started off all powered up and excited to serve him more, to grow closer to him. Yet when in a new environment, i see myself fall all the way to the bottom of the pit.
Its really time for me to learn to adapt to changes, to learn to cope and not escape from it.

Its time for me to learn to put him first in my life and not get distracted by other things in my life.
I'm really thankful for his unconditional love for me. That despite the many times i've failed him all these years, he was alays still there for me, encouraging me and giving me new chances to start all over again.
Its time that i be serious about my walk in Christ.
Its time that i treat him seriously.
Its time that i mean what i say.

Even if it means sacrifices, hard work and inconvenience, i'm still going to try my best once again.
Doing something for another despite the inconvenience express one's love for the other.

Brand new start of the next half of the year= new realisatic goals.
baby steps it may be, but i'll make sure i do it till the end.

NEW GOALS FOR JUNE 28, 2010
Spiritual
1. attend cell group and church service regularly again + Fellowship after service at least once every 2 to 3weeks
2. start attending bible study once again
3. read my bible and pray daily
4. Be more faithful in these little things =))

Studies
1. No more taiwan drams, study more diligently. min 1.30am daily!
2. No more distraction, stay focus!
3. Attain my dream scores for A level! =DD

Health
1. Cut down junk food, eat lesser and loose weight! =)
2. run @ least 3 times a week

okay time to study!!! =)
school starts tmr. MONDAY BLUESSSSS. :((((((

2010-06-27T00:55:00.002+08:00

i've just a sudden urge to update this really dead blog of mine. its been more than 2 months1 since i even bothered to blog. maybe cause there's nth really interest about life to blog about. haha
Life just studying, taiwan dramas and variety shows, running, church and nothing else this entire june hols. LOL. plus shopping therapy with mum and sister= super happy cause i bought a lot of stuff and celebrated sister's 22nd bday and father's day with family =) and clique outing with my favourite girls! i miss you ppl alot! TZEYING,VERA,WEIRU omggg i can just like bitch talk with your for hours man. I love how we laugh at others, bitch about others tgt non stop etc! its like we're always on the same wavelength. sometimes, i really wish that i'm still in the same school as you ppl. i bet sch life will be much enjoyable but i can just predict how i will probably miss more than half of school lessons. LOL!
awwwww miss you people truck loads. we got to meet up real soon and CAMWHORE. long time since we had any decent camwhorring session tgt.

To think that i was still looking forward to june hols just one month ago and ZOOM in just another 1 day plus time, its going to be all over.
sigh i'm dreading school like mad. i really hate attending lessons!!!
i wish i could just mug all day long at home. heehee!
high hopes for myself in june hols but i've done less than half of what i have in mind. :((((
4 more plus to A levels. yet i feel so unprepared still. Not even a single revision done for any subject and prelims is just in 6 weeks. Just the thought of it leaves me hyperventilating. I don't know how i'm going to survive through. Literally.
i feel that i should be mugging way harder than what i did for O levels yet i'm not.
MOTIVATIONNN please come back to me!
i need to feel the drive to study.
sense of urgency!!!

Went for cg meeting after 1 2 3 4 5 SIX weeks. LOL.
really 'xi ke' man. haha!
i'm happy that i went for cg. =))))
watched world cup with cg members after cg. BRAZIL VS PORTUGAL.
my first time this yr. noob much. &&& i realised that portugal has alot of HAWTTT PLAYERS. WOOTSSSS!!! i really wanted to cheer GOALLLL but sadly a score of nil for both. :(((
& i promise myself that i'll go fellowship with my cell group tmr since apparently e last time i fellowshiped with them was probably 3 months ago?? haha.

yay service with pst Kong tmr. HAPPY TTM.
I STAND BY MY CHURCH NO MATTER WHAT! =DDD

okay, time to continue on my june hol hw. ughhh and i've a sudden urge for TWISTIES!

2010-04-20T18:15:00.003+08:00

I'm so proud of myself! haha! =)
for the first time ever, i actually dared to go to the gym alone during my long breaks to run on both monday and tuesday! =D
who cares about being A LOSER! =)
did a 6km run yesterday and another 8km run today both at 10.5 speed. Feels good knowing that i've lost calories and i've not lose my stamina either!
Love leisure running like this. No stress at all and i actually enjoy the process of running alone.
I'm going to start running weekly on my own during my long breaks!
duathlon with shufen this saturday. i hope,wish PRAY that we'll win something back. YAY!
okay, copeg test this friday. i feel so unprepared for it. ughhhhh.
okay time to mugmugmug!!!

MID YEARS IN LESS THAN 5 WEEKS.
i can do it!!

i love taylor's swift love story alot alot alot now!

2010-04-15T19:08:00.003+08:00

My journey as an Ac cross country runner has really indeed come to an end with the end of both cross and track season.
Mixed feelings right now. I'm kind of relief that trainings are over so i can concertrate on my A levels but man i'm so so so gonna miss training and being with the current cross team. :(
I think that both our batch are like one of the most united and there's just so much fun with them around. Guess i'm never going to find another team like them! :(
I started off cross in Ac as a total NOOB.
lagging behind for all the runs and intervals.
started catching up and loving long runs in the process.
training hard to be in the school cross team.
to loving track intervals during the track season.
now i really wish that i've started cross right back in secondary school!!
one year of cross just seem far too short. :(((

Can't wait for CROSS COUNTRY CAMP in may!!!
& now good riddance to all distractions.
its time to start mugging for A levels!

topsy turny week.
emotional roller coaster.
studies,track and ____.
thank God for great classmates and friends who hear me whine all the time
and who encouraged me on.
its time to move on.
stop crying.
FOCUS on whats important now.

2010-03-24T17:00:00.002+08:00

National cross country today. Although the girls' team didnt managed to achieve our goal, i'm still glad that we got 4th. we got back the team medal that we lose last year! cheerios. =)
Happy for the guys who managed to get 4th for team too.
Sakura for team dinner tonight. Buffet!!! super freaking excited. haha! cant wait to eat. =DDD

Term exam results are out.
A for chem and math.
B for econs.
D for biology and gp.
grrr! i always wonder why i even chose biology. :(((((
& if i would have scored better should i have taken physics.sigh.

is this my really best?
could i have gone faster and better if only i pushed harder.
but guess theres no room for regrets.

Track season is starting next week!!

2010-03-12T15:52:00.003+08:00

YAY! term exams are officially over. =D
HAPPY TO THE MAX. woots!
after biology paper, it was lunch at swenson's with more than half of the class.
super gross talks that end up with this middle age woman glaring at us all the way till we left swenson's. LOL.
faceshop with the girls and i PAINTED MY NAILS IN RAINBOW COLOURS!
I LIKE I LIKE!
C's house for fun-o-rama stuffs and we played BAND HERO !
omg freaking fun. like over 10 people in the room singing away to apparent hot favourite 'you belong with me' and 'love story'.=D
Last night run yesterday. =)
breakfast with the j2 cross team at queensway's mac.
yay! and playing band hero at serlin's house with the crossie girls on thursday!! can't wait.
dire need of sleep now.

2010-03-09T18:17:00.002+08:00

TERM EXAM WEEK!
4/5 paper done. Last paper this thursday but i'm seriously acting like its the end of term exams. maybe cause its biology. =D
i seriously wonder time after time why i decide to take biology when i hate that subject ever since secondary school. HAHA!
gp was horrible. the compre passage was so difficult. :(
econ was alright except for the essay part b cause i totally didnt even read up on Singapore's 2010 budget and i did not know what policies were even implemented.LOL. first time ever that i totally crap my way through for an essay. confirm fail that component!
math and chem today. praying that i'll do well! =)

time trial again tmr. :(
sigh. freaking stressful.
praying that i'll run well again tmr.
YAY! cant wait for thursday & friday to come.
Alice in wonderland with class clique!!!
time for a nap before i start on biology.
=D

2010-03-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

STRESS STRESS STRESS! :(
feel much better after talking to mum just now. =D
love my mum loads loads. she really know what to say to make me feel better.
sigh.
overwhelming load of stress.
first ever D for chemistry test.
a level chinese coming out this friday.
term exams are only next week yet i've sph race this weekend,
two papers on monday which ends at 4plus and training after that.
two more papers on tuesday which i feel so unprepared for.
another time trial on wednesday at bedok when there's biology term exams on thursday.
i really really want to get into the main team but i'm scared......
crap! this is total crap shit.
cant wait for all of this to be over.
i feel so tired and drained.

2010-03-02T23:34:00.001+08:00

Just 5 more days to term exams.
SPH race this saturday aftn. sigh. i wish i didnt have to go.
i really need more time to study for my term exams.
Took 3 freaking hours to do just a few basic questions on integration-area plus volume.
crap shit cause apparently i cant do now. :(
never felt so screwed and unprepared for any exams.

2010-02-28T16:18:00.002+08:00

1more week to term exam. I can seriously predict how i'm going to do for my term exams. :( 1 more week to cramp all the other remaining topics plus intensive cross training. Needing to tell myself that i can do it! i can do it!

Bedok wings race yesterday. almost hit 20mins for my 4.1km race. sigh. :(
the timing was totally horrifying.
i guess my mental and a lack of sleep just sort of got the better of me.
I need to remain focus. i need to improve. i need to tell myself that i have to work much harder to be in the first team.
Strong mental power!

24more days to national cross.

2010-02-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

3.5 more weeks to term exams!
its totally horrible cause i've not really started my revision. sigh. i usually start like at least 1 month earlier but not now. :(
school,training,competition and church stuffs are enough to leave me exhausted by 10 plus in the evening. i know i need to study but i seem to lack the ability to stay up late. frustrated!!!

Last saturday's race 'Tan Soo Liat Memorial Race' was indeed memorable. Snorts!!! 6 bags+1 shoe bag of the crossers went missing during the race!
My bag and shoebag!! :((((
stupid thieves! may they get their just punishment! haha!
quite a great experience for us all. LOL. first time making a police report!
Juniors' 3km race and they got 2nd and 3rd respectively. =)

yay! quite happy cause my 2.6km slope interval route has an improvement of about 2mins.
National x-country in only 5plus weeks time! i need to be motivated for every single training especially TRACK WORKOUTS!!

econ and math test tmr.
studied already. shall just commit it to God.
byezzzz!
till the next time i blog again.

2010-01-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

3rd or as the school claim 4th week of school.
Sigh i really hate my timetable. stupid 4plus hours long of lessons plus another 2 hours of break. ugh. sucks,seriously. :(
Just training,h3 and races are enough to take up my weekdays to saturday. & now i've no idea when to even put my tuitions. I want tuition yet i cant find an appropriate time to have them. amazing.
First week with the J1s.950 j1s plus the many many more who are appealing in. ugh, no wonder the canteen stall q is like super long permanently.
but on a lighter note, all the x-country appeal girls are in. =DDD
Super duper duper happy for them. yay! =)
cause we're finally one official AC x-country team.
random thought, i love thursday night runs,especially last thursday night route! the path is super nice and its like really quiet and all. Past all the rich housing estates. omg! now i know why its starting price is at 10million. Cause they look just like a massion!! goshhh.
butbutbutb thurday night run=stomachache, bad sleep, sleepy in class, horrible friday. LOL.
& i think i really do love training nowadays.
=DDDDD

5more weeks to term exam.
shitttt. i need to sleep less and start studying.

2010-01-17T22:47:00.004+08:00

My first ever track event!
i succeded cause i finally over come my fear, just went to the track and run and not give up. =)
although my timing was terribly horrible, i mean who taked 14plus mins for 3km? but oh well at least i managed to face my fears and did a reality check. i see where i stand for nationals this year. I learn from my mistakes. & most of all i learn to see the importance of intervals!! haha! i decided not to slack anymore during training. intervas=all the way!
4min15sec/km!

GOALS GOALS GOALS.
crap why dont i ever look glam when i run. :(
all the photos look like i've got a constipation. LOL!

2010-01-16T11:25:00.002+08:00

First week of school! =)
1.Contact lens tore twice in three days. sigh. Went around school woth my specs the last two days. =( but i bet i look intellectual. haha!
2.PTL! got into top 10% in school for last year's results. =D WOOTS!!!
3.New juniors into cross country. yay!
4. Met up with weiru,alice and jess for dinner @ pepperlunch yesterday. =)
super happy since its been a long long time since i last met them.esp jess!haha. (L)

okay and i need to find back the motivation to mug once again.:(
STOP SLACKING JANE!!

3km SAA track race later.:( scared! scared! scared!
i dont want to be the last.
i hate track events!

2010-01-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

ACJC 2010 OPEN HOUSE TOMORROW! =)
do come down!! =DDD
omg tinghuan's coming down and i so can imagine what's gonna happen next. LOL!
ughh. h3 chemistry or not?
can't decide!!
but first i need to start mugging and stop slacking.
STOP SLACKING, JANE!

2010-01-10T21:56:00.003+08:00

I seriously can't believe that 2months just went like that!!
training, outings with besties and friends, occasional study dates and church and before i know it ZOOM its 2010 and now school's starting.
Had been pretty hype up over the fact that school is going to be reopening really soon. However, its now the night before new the school year start. Holidays really really ending.Kind of excited over what the new school year may hold for me yet fearful of the unknown overwhelming stress from track, cross, church and also A LEVELS.
UGHHH!

commiting everything to my daddy God's hands.
ending off with my favourite verse' i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me'. =D

2010-01-02T19:56:00.002+08:00

Brand new year, barnd new start.
New dreams, new goals to achieve.
hello 2010. I can't believe i'm 18 this year.
2009 has indeed been a challenging year for me. From entering a new school with a brand new environment,learning how to start socialising once again. Being tranfered to a new cell group out of the blue plus the many setbacks i encountered in life.
Despite all these, God has been really good to me i must say.
He enabled me to meet new great friends in cross country, school and also my cell group. Helped me through every single one of my training when i felt like giving up. Blessed me with good results for my promos and also enabled me to attain my dream of becoming a connect group leader.
Brand new goals for 2010! =)
i shall..
# Focus only on God, studies and my x-country!
no more eye candies in school! hahahahahahahaha!
#Get motivated and start studing for my A levels once school reopen. STRAIGHT As!!!!
#Run well for x-country and track and field season this year.
#Join a ministry in church this year.
#Not watch any more taiwan /hongkong drama after Autumn concerto.
p.s. omgggggg Vanness Wu is hot!!!

anyway, i miss you weiru and shufen! :((((((
come back quickly!!!!

2009-12-13T21:38:00.001+08:00

CAMP BELIEVE WAS AMAZINGLY GREAT!!!
Pastor Kong laid hands on the ME today! woots! first time ever! =DD
shall update more about the camp and more soon.

SAMURAI FTW!
Yay best cheer award!=))

2009-12-08T14:43:00.002+08:00

I used the entire morning to just read 1 chpt of Macro economics.
Shit i should seriously stop trying to stay at home to study cause its obviously not working at all. Ughhhh!
omgg check standard chartered resultss today and girl's team got 4th! sighhh dam wasted cause if we had 3rd we'll have 500bucks! which is like 100bucks each!!!
oh well.
& i need to start on bacteria NOW!!!!!!

2009-12-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

Standard chartered race today. Felt that i was in a really bad state. Was almost dying by the 4km mark. Had every intention to stop but thank God for all the 'motivators'. Wore AC jersey so there was like really random people shouting' Go AC' or random people coming up to me to tell me that they were from the ACS family too and to go all the way. Really encouraging. =D
Shearse bridge or however you spell it. Walked for like 2 steps and this NUS cross country girl came up to me and told me that she was from AC too and told me not to walk. So continued running. Waved at random people who called me though i've no idea who they are actually. Pretty embarrasing. Managed to finish in about 59mins. Not exactly ideal but guess i did my best? so yeah, that's what counts.
Training tmr. Off to sleep soon!!
tired after race today.
Seriously i need to study hard soon!!!
crap i shouldnt be slacking any longer. ughhh.

2009-11-29T21:53:00.003+08:00

A spur of the moment sort of thing once again. Decided to update this really dead blog of mine.
Blog been really dead since i started Jc with like barely a few posts each month. Its like my life has become so mundane and boring that there seems to be nothing to blog about. Felt like shutting this blog down at times but i cant bear to. What with all the achieves in there. My precious memory since secondary two and since re-reading my old posts pretty much entertain me when i'm bored.

Yay to that i've become a shade darker after swimming with cross team last friday. =D
Really fun swimming together and also running around the entire lazy pool to see whose float will reach the ending point till attempting to squeeze two people into one float, staring at people slide down the slopes while rating them and also scamming our poor juniors who not only helped us keep the floats and also ran around the baby pool playgroung, squeezing through the little tunnels.
Intended to catch 2012 with my parents but the next few timeslots were all sold out. Had no choice so decided to shop aound. Managed to buy 2 new pairs of shoes and also NEW MOON novel. =DD
Followed by a trip to Queensway to make new glasses and PTL for the blessing. Had a new pair of shades meant for sports use from my aunt totally free when the original cost was like a few hundred.

Saturday was spend training with cross team, cg meeting and also dinner with parents.
Service& cg sermon were impactful and it really encouraged me to do even better in my spiritual walk with him. Pm foe camp believe after service and late lunch with several cg members at Plaza Sing.
Also, congrats VERA SOH LI FATT upon getting water baptise today!
so sorry that i couldn't be there. :(
Anyway, believing that you'll see even greater breakthroughs in your life. =))
Love yah, my favourite retarded mate.
XOXO
Training at Mcritchie tomorrow morining. D:
but yay going to get new shoes and also have lunch at ikea with TY and also V tomorrow!!
miss them alot alot alot!
Too bad WR is going on a holiday. Have fun and lets meet up soon okay!!
&& SF you too! Lets arrange a date ASAP !!!

NEW MOON is going to be out this thursday!!!

2009-11-12T09:23:00.002+08:00

I'M OVER THE MOON!! WOOTS.
pw is finally over. =)))
op A levels yesterday. Praised the Lord, guess i did pretty okay. =D
FREE NOW. FREE NOW. FREE NOW.
interval training yesterday which i dread like mad. HATE INTERVALS cause they're so tiring.
Caught 2012 yesterday with most of the Cg members. Thanks Ben for the ticket. =)
the movie is SUPER SUPER NICE!!
A MUST WATCH OKAY.
However, it was really sad at some points of time. Like how the whole state just collaspe and millions just die.
mannnn i pray that such will never happen on Earth.
Movie ended at 11plus almost 12 and i was like freaking out when cabbing home as the meter was jumping like mad.LOL.
anyway sigh. was supposed to meet ty to run today but i overslept. HAHA.
oh well shall probably run in the evening. If i can make myself get out of the house.

2009-10-27T01:39:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired of having to rush through the endless mountain of tasks needed to be completed daily from pw. sigh. its 1plus in the morning and theres still the need to read through my op script BUT my eye lids are like seriously closing any moment. TOTALLY.
The thought of me not having started studying for my A level chinese and OP for A levels scares me. There's like so much to do yet so little time.
Uncle passed away early sunday morning so have been spending my entire sunday and monday evening,after training, at the funeral wake till late in the night. Attempted to complete Op slides and chinese homework there but some how it feels far too distracting and all. :(
i really really really need to be on task!
i need to start on my chinese!
i want nothing but an A grade.

TIME will you please stop for me.

2009-10-21T22:55:00.002+08:00

Project work, i swear i really hate you.
you're so disgusting that the thought of you makes me want to puke.
you deprive me of my leisure time. you deprive me of my sleep.you make me all cranky and stress up. sometimes, i wonder why you have got to be in my life.

Learning journey to Officer Cadet School. Just for a moment, i was so tempted to enter the army. But thinking about all the mental and physical hardships i've got to endure there. i changed my mind. LOL. i seriously doubt that i'll be able to go through it successfully cause i bet its obviously gonna be real tough. & i've no intention to turn out all buff and scary at the end of two years.
So i decided, my future boyfriend must garduate from OCS.
cause that is where the fittest and smartest go to= ideal boyfriend =)))))
what an enriching learning journey. HAHA!!
omg and as usual i did something so freaking embarrassing. grrrrr!!

sigh chinese chinese here i come.
SNOTSSS.

2009-10-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

love 1sc7!!!!=)
AC games today and we won 3golds out of the 6 games!! =DDDD

2009-10-15T12:27:00.002+08:00

Welcome after two whole months! snorts!!
amazing to realised that i have not even bothered to blog for almost two whole months.
Promos are finally over but PW has just begun. :(
Thinking about pw=sleepless nights and lots of work to be done once again.
started to run after being on a hiatus for like two weeks? & my stamina has once again suffered.
Theres really really a need to train hard.
Nike race
Great Eastern women 10km
New balance race
Standard chartered
NATIONALS NEXT YEAR!!
cheezzz and so many many more stuffs.
Watched 500days of summer with classmates last friday, sakae with weiru on tuesday and cloudy with a chace of meatball and gym-ed with ty yesterday and today.
yay!! can't wait for our tim sum buffet meal tgt!! =DDD
weeee can't resist food=train harder to shed more calories. Lol.
oh well i think i'm like totally rattling on and on incoherently and yeah so
TOODLES TO ALL. =)
time for pw.
all hail pw!

2009-08-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

STRESS!STRESS!STRESS!
the fact that i've got 4 tests this week with math test tomorrow that i feel so unprepared for despite studing for it.
with the addition of a mountain high of homework that teachers are asking us to submit that i've not even started. T.T
with 12km NUS race this sunday and pw meeting!
grrrrrr! i want to pon school! :((((
promos in less than 6 weeks!!!!

HARDCORE TRAINING!

2009-08-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOSH! haha can't believe that ia ctually ran a 16plus km route today for training.
came back first for girls! woots!=)
1st 8km was torturous. spent the whole run trying to pace ade and c while telling myself not to give up.
surprisingly after the 8plus km mark at around mount faber there i actually had more energy than before. PTL.could even sprint the last 2km. clocked a timing of about 1hour 45mins.
not bad for a for such a long long run. =DDD

reached home at 8plus almost 9pm.
dinner and chiong-ed pw. sigh. i really hate pw.
a total waste of time, please. :(
grrr cant wait for this shit to be over.

2009-08-16T17:03:00.001+08:00

SAFRA BAY RUN 2009!=)
took part in it today with the ac crossers. but i was like the only girl in the team who signed up.
:( haha!
quite a great experiece though i would say.
woke up at 4am in the morning o.O( race preperations) before haveind daddy and mummy send me there.
waited for the others before depositing our stuffs with coach and started on our warm up. its really wierd wearing the school jersey cause people are like constantly going :" eh AC cross country ppl. yada! yada! and stuffs."
the guys' race started off at 7am so i stood and stare blankly at the masses of unfarmiliar faces till 7.25am when they started the woman's race.
ran an average of 5min plus/km for the first 5km. hit 5km mark at 26min 30secs.
5km to the 8km mark was crazy. had the urge to give up and start walking but i was like totally pushing myself on. hit 8km mark at a horrible 46mins plus at the 8km mark.
grabbed a cup of water from the water station at the 8km mark, stood there to drink and rest for a while beofre running the last 2km. decided to speed up from that point. haha! totally sprint when they yelled alst 350m! clocked a timing of 60mins 52secs! according to my watch. haha!
this timing last year is like top 55! ohmigoooshhhh!
the run was pretty good all in all. except for the fact that the army guy were all freaking walking and totally causing a road block. had to shout excuse me though out the run to squeeze through the crowd.yucks to the sweaty arms that brushed past mine. had to even stop at the first check point cause the road was far too narrow and had to walk for a while cause the whole crowd was just walking and not running. urgghh.
was initially aiming for a timing below one hour. but i guess the timing is still pretty acceptable since i've not been training for the past 2 weeks plus due to the sprain of my ankle.
next 10km race will be Great Eastern women race. shall aim for about 57 TO 58mins!! =DDDD
FINAL AIM: beloe 55mins for standard chartered 2009! woots! haha.

& yay my aunt bought me a netbook today! i'm super super weeee! happy! haha.

2009-08-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

The whole week of birthday celebration ended last friday with cross country and x.phiscovia celebrating for me on thursday and the cg on friday. =)))
wootttssss! i feel <3333. haha!
celebrated national day on friday and was on the way to school and saw super loads of students wearing red. PATROTIC CITIZENS!

& suddenly i realised that i've never bothered to wear red on national day for like many many years already. strong and sudden love for the nation through attempts to sing in my low husky voice. snorts! & started singing with classmates 'To God Be The Glory ' in the choir sort of way. shit and the guys can like sing really in this super high pitch. =(
school ended at 9plus but had to attend econs essay writing workshop for 3over hours. can't believe that i actually survived through it.
went to the gym with deb after workshop and lunched with deb, clar,miyuki and ziai at holland v's thai express. chop away almost 6inch of my hair with clar and miyuki!!
its really short now but sort of liking it now cause its really light! =D
gossip with clar at starbucks till 6 plus beofre going for cg.
thaks e316 for the surprise celebration! =)))))

sunday was spent in church, felloshipping with cg, tp to collect race pack and orchard coffee club to meet my beloved pw group for pw! yay! we made progress already! we're not the last anymore. haha! love my pw group members super super alot! i realised that i get really crazy and high when around with them. a bit disturbingly nuts perhaps with my ever random and lame behavior.
& i was patrotic by saying the pledge at 8.22pm right at BK.

brunch with parents at IMM before going holland v's starbucks to mug econs with ty!
seriously, the place is just flooded with AC ppl. LOL.

econs and gp paper is finally over!
shit i don;t even want to think about it, especially GP
oh well, what's done is done.

chem test again tmr. sighh.
& A level spa starts next week! :(

promos in less than 2months!